Entry: lonely, i'm so lonely Tuesday, February 07, 2006



I don't know what's wrong with me lately. I've only been back for a few days and I'm feeling this strange feeling that I'm unwanted and unloved; I totally feel alone and that no one really cares. I hate feeling this way, this abandonment. Sure there are a few friends who will stick by you no matter what, and I thought that I'll always be wanted by them. I never expected things to change, I mean it was merely a month, a short period of time, but a month has done a few damages to my heart and I'm hurting.

I've been gone only for a month and so many things have happened since my time away. I want things to be the way they were before I left. I never thought that a month of travelling could change me and my friends so much. I guess no one really understands me.

I had fun over there, but I did not for one moment  forget my friends and how I wished that they were there with me, to have as much fun I had when I was over there. I need some comfort to know that there are people who care, who love me for who I am. I sometimes wonder if I mean a thing to anyone anymore.

It's funny how things change. Not really funny, 'cause i'm the one hurting, but it's strange how things work out. I guess I just have to accept this change and hope that something good comes out of it. Something good like they aren't really leaving me; that what I'm feeling is my insecurity taking hold of me.

Who really wants an insecure, selfish, stupid chick like me as a friend anywho?

Anyways enough about this rant, on to more a happier note... I'll recap my trip for you guys.

Upon arriving at the Hong Kong airport we (mum,bro and I) bought 4 luggages. We arrived during 11 pm and we were at the carousel (sp?) searching for our luggage. First came my bro's, then the other two. Where was mine I thought? Anyways, the clock struck midnight and all the luggages on the carousel were gone and my luggage was no where in sight. We went to the stand for missing/stolen luggage, gave our details and they said they'll send it to our hotel if they find it. When we arrived at the hotel, I found a note under the door saying that my luggage was retrieved. Called the front desk to have my luggage returned to me, but said that they didn't have it. What the heck? Next morning after shopping I asked the front desk for my luggage, they said to go to the bell boy, I went to the bell boy and they gave it to me. Oh, my lovely luggage! =]

- Kowloon, stayed there for 4 days. Great shopping for my mum who totally adores jewellery. I however didn't get any clothing from there. Call me stupid or whatever but their clothes do not interest me. Not my style, sorry.

- Hong Kong, stayed there for 2 days for Thomas's HK Disneyland, it was crap as. It was so small in comparison to the US's Disneyland but I had fun there with my bro. =] The hotel there was excellent, it was a 5 star hotel and it was magnificent. It was a shame to leave the hotel.

We arrived in Rome at 1 am. Damn, what's with the weird arrival times?! Anyways the train stopped working at 10 pm, so we had no way to get to our hotel. [Taxi drivers told my mum that trains stopped working at 10 pm- and only for that day] mum was in doubt, thought they were liars and were only conning us to get into their taxi. Anyways my mum didn't believe them so we had to go down the escalators to the train station and saw that they were right, there was no train running at this hour of the night [130 am ish]. After a debate, mum was reluctant in saying 'yes' to another taxi offer. He took us all the way to the back of the airport. I was thinking, something's fishy is going on. He had no TAXI bar thing on the top of his car, his car looked out of condition [it so wasn't in condition for driving, one of the rear mirror was missing, paint scratched and his side of the car was smashed]. I was thinking "right, I am so not getting into this car' but it was 3 degrees celcius (or lower) and I didn't want to stand in the cold and mum was rushing me to get into the car. He was driving like a maniac- I didn't know how fast he was going 'cause they don't use kilometres but it was really fast. Mum got scared, bro too, I was thinking "this isn't my fault". Mum was so scared she told him to stop, he dropped us in the middle of the road and left. 15 mins or so later, my bro spotted a REAL TAXI and waved for it to come to us, he brought us to the hotel and it was warm in there. IT STUNK AND IT WAS SO SMALL. I couldn't really sleep during my time there.

I hated the hotel in Rome. You know why? It was a bloody 2 star crap! FAR!

Anyways, I got a few jewllery there. It's some nice stuff, but they are really into haggling, so mum was haggling a lot with them, whenever she did decide to, me and Thomas would suddenly disappear.

America was the best. Shopping, shopping and more shopping. We did so much shopping that we had to buy another TWO luggages.

Anyways, sorry for the long read. Enjoy.

~Theresa

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